DEPARTURES

I don’t want to get up

I want to lay like the night hasn’t ended

Relieved of my dreams never reached

Be loved as I never was

And believe that is real.

I don’t want to get up

I want to feel the silk on my body

Keep my eyes closed and see what I want

A different world and a different time

And believe that is real.

I don’t want to get up

I want to think that if I stay still

If I’m capable of creating a different reality

I won’t be hurt this time as badly

And still believe that is real.

I don’t want to get up

I don’t want to go back to the lost days

I don’t want to remember that it is too late

To change what I did and who I am

And still believe that is real.

I don’t want to get up

I don’t want to open my eyes

I don’t want to ever talk

Of my pain and my scars

And still believe that is real.