FIVE MINUTE STAR

In just a blink she was gone
Leaving behind the brightest halo
It was like a golden diva
A new shinny form in the firmament
Carmen with a velvet voice
Aida with all the splendor
Violetta finally in ruins
Now I keep your voice in vinyl
Eternal spinning black that tries
Every once and then with some luck
To reproduce the sound 
That captivated my imagination
And for one more time when alone
If I close my eyes and just listen
Her voice would again be there
Her image would again be present
And again she would be just for me
That famous diva, a five minute star.

SECOND COMING

He would be killed again
Nothing has changed
There is more progress to express hate
More money to buy the same

He would be killed again
Old monarchies, new corporations
Very lost in his own world
More lost in each generation

He would be killed again
By the master, the puppeteer
The sheik, the king, the wall street emperor
Leaders of corporations, owners of it all

He would be killed again
An executive will give the order
Executor of war between the classes
Architect of the great corruption

He would be killed again
The world is showing we are yet not ready
Not opening our hands, but closing our fists
With only interest in what is gold and what is heavy

He would be killed again. . .

FUNNY MONDAY

First born day of the week
How much I expect from you
A new diet, a new job, a new life
Every one of them will start on you
Monday, Funny Monday
Primogeniture day of the week
What is the secret to be there
Always present in most careers
Ready to start anew
Promising a bright new beginning
Monday, Funny Monday
First born day of the week
When the new resolution starts
Running, sweating, goals and pounds
Making rules, making muscles
Ready to start anew
Promising a bright new beginning
Monday, Funny Monday
Primogeniture day of the week
When we starve ourselves to death
And we check in the same mirror
Looking for a bigger change
Ready to start anew
Promising a bright new beginning
Monday, funny Monday
Where is my promised new life
Where have you taken my promising new career
Why can't I see anymore my muscles
Underneath more pounds and pounds of fat
What have you done with my mirror
That only deepens my wrinkles
Monday, old funny Monday
Now you are not more than a pain
That starts every morning at six a.m.
When the ring kicks me out of my own bed
And promises only one thing
A hard work day ahead of me
And my demanding boss, Antonella.

PRETEND NO MORE

That's right

You pretend

Pretend that is me who doesn't love you anymore

Pretend that is me who has abandoned the dream

To share life together

Till dead do us part

You pretend

That I won't listen when it hurts

That I change conversations

That I don't care where you go

And I give a damn how you feel

You pretend

That I am the one who screams the loudest

That I am the one who is responsible

The only one to blame

You pretend

That I would be lost without you

That all my feelings are an act

That I won't get hurt when you depart

To look for love very far

You pretend

That I am the one who had all planned

That I won't care if you are happy

That it is your right to hide from me

That it is even better to push me aside

That I will be there, no matter what

You just pretend

But pretend no more

Because you have broken all boundaries

Because there is not way back

When you reach a point of no return

Pretend no more

Because all loves are gone

And you can keep all the fresh ones

With memories and all.

Pretend no more

When life together is over

Because I feel the pain when you are with other

Because I can't pretend no more.

BITS AND PIECES (INTERNET LOVE) (Maybe a song)

Only pictures in my mind

Only bites of how your voice might sound

A blurry image on the screen

pixelated and with distortions

But your lips are freshly clear

And the sparkle in your eyes

Open doors to your sweet soul

Keeps me awake every night

And I'm daydreaming with the sight

of your pictures in my mind

But you are far away

And my heart can not resist

For how long to wait

To have you here in my arms

Because I love you

And I can't handle my life like this

Because I love you

There are things that can not wait

Because I love you

It's all the hours I don't want to miss

And I'm daydreaming with the sight

of your pictures in my mind

To be with you I want

To feel your body I want

To have you by my side

...

Because I love you

Because my life is not enough

And I'm daydreaming with the sight

of your pictures in my mind

TO THE SONS I NEVER HAD

I do have to apologize

For living a selfish life

For the belief that not believing

Was a way to exercise

My right as a human being

A very advanced animal

But I was wrong a hundred times

I do have to apologize

For not believing in Mother Earth

For treating her as a whore, as a slave

For getting not just what was needed

But also all that was wanted

For leaving behind a mess

Very difficult to fix

I do have to apologize

Oh my sons believe me, I am sorry

I did not do good enough

For not letting it happen as it did

Full extinction and indeed

Cowardly to not believe

That one voice can change the world

That one heart can teach you love

And a closed mind can destroy it all

I do have to apologize

Dear sons please forgive me

This is not the world I dreamed

To leave behind for you at all.

BLUE ABYSS

Blue Abyss, worlds apart, and only two senses to celebrate your beauty

It’s not just the distance, eight hours of time, that keep our lives so far

From one another we can only hear a voice, see burred images, and as much as I try

I could not materialize the smells, the flavors, not the softness of the silk without you

My hands are powerless, my tongue too dry, the essences are all gone with the pass of time

I dream a dream with open eyes, the black more black, tulips more impossible to find

And then I choose to close my eyes to live the life:

Katherine, Robert, Sean, and Aaron running in joy as they see you arrive

The aroma of meat and mushrooms cooking for lasagna today

And the Mediterranean breeze moving your hair, making me feel what happiness really is

Lacoste is in the air, and far away, I don’t know where, somebody still plays...

Some heavy metal: Seven, Four, Five, and Nirvana

I serve you a Bloody Mary, like every day,

And you smile again before you go to play

You are now the one who’s teaching:

English, Soccer, you are their God

To me, you are still the Persian Prince I just have to meet

One day, two years, five, ten from now

Celebrating one more birthday with a Black Forest cake

It’s a beautiful park, but wait,

Your image is blurred again...

I only hear your voice now, your voice that tells me:

Look at the light running through the beautiful cherry blossoms

IF I CUT A FLOWER

If I cut a flower

A Butterfly would tremble

If I catch a butterfly

A hummingbird would turn away

If a hummingbird leaves

The air would change direction

If the air moves in the opposite way

Sound waves wouldn’t reach my receiver

My only communication would change time

From eight hours to eight days

My hearth would start beating faster

And I would run out of time

To give the love of my life

That beautiful flower I would have for him

That’s why I won’t touch the flower

That’s why I will watch the butterfly go away

That’s why the hummingbird will fly still on the same spot

And the air won’t change directions

I will stay still

I will catch another glimpse for a moment

Of what a wonderful love awaits for me every day just there

Only eight hours away.

JOURNEY

When does it start

When does it end

At every curb a new street

That ahead of us unfolds

A new unexplored destiny

And to start anew

Once and again

Over and over

Leading us every day to new surprises

Leaving behind a bridge

To get to the next

Thinking that this plan is ours

Making our wishes truth

Reaching for the happiness that awaits us

Right there, and very far

Then once inside the tunnel

Moving on a one way street

We see the light at the end

That never seems to approach

And we keep going

Sometimes so focused on that light

So concentrated in that direction

That we absolutely forget

That right here and right now

In every single moment

There is an opportunity for enjoyment

If we would just slow down a little

Looking at our sides

And see that other souls like ours

Are also reaching for their own dreams

Let's hold hands with one another

Let our energy be the guide

Let our love be the motion of our actions

Let's live our own lives but without separation

Share our dreams in harmony

Reaching for the stars as a family

And travel our journey together.

SOONER OR LATER

The ship is about to sail

We are here, we are there

Heart in one land

Brain in another

Our body sailing

In the middle of the sea

Uprooted from the continent of pain

Traveling to the continent of hope

Navigating an ocean of fear

But there it goes

Against all odds

With salty water underneath

and salty water in my tears

Far I left all my suffering

Sooner I will conquer all the happiness

Sad faces behind showing their wet handkerchiefs

Happy faces ahead with extended arms

And there I go

To a new adventure, to a new experience

Lonely sailor of my own life

Tides of fortune

A sun on the horizon

The same horizon that is waiting for me

Where I am going to arrive

sooner or later.

COLORS OF PASSION

Its fire

Red, orange, yellow incandescent

Red hot liquid running through it

Strawberries juice dripping of thick persian lips

A tempest of feelings over the red sea

Blood in blood like the warriors

Turbulent land of dragons

Sour in the rough corners

Sweet in their intense eternity

And the orange gets stronger

It is yellow, bright yellow

Almost white and then red again

Persistent like a wound that won’t stop bleeding

Red hot liquid running through it

Intense, accelerating

Fascination at first glance

Gaze that will last forever

Red, red and more red

Now completely out of control

When the bodies get together

Just a stare, can’t look away

And then feel, powerful and soft hot pleasure

And when almost there, like fireworks

Red, orange, yellow bright

Red hot liquid running through it

An explosion between the two

Two who adore each other

Red hot liquid running through it

Passion of lovers that is.

TWO YEARS TOO MUCH

Time passes by, very fast to slow

Two years might be an eternity

Two years getting old and dying

Time passes by, very fast to slow

One mirror will reflect dark

One mirror will reflect bright

Time passes by, very fast to slow

My skin getting dryer

Your skin getting softer

Time passes by, very fast to slow

I will be dragging my feet

You will be running ahead

Time passes by, very fast to slow

Two years that is

An eternity to wait

An eternity to die.

DEAR FRIEND

You are there looking, staring at me

I can see your bright dark eyes

Telling me how much you love me, oh good friend

I know you can’t talk, no need too

As you age

I am not only seeing silver in your hair

But I learned how unconditional your love is, oh good friend

I know you, when you smile at me

I know you, when you want to play

And I know, you know me well

All the joy in you when I touch you

And the look in your face when I don’t

Oh, good friend

You cozy, sweet little thing

Tell me what is your secret

How is it that your tail never stops

How you never stop to amaze me

How your patience is so enormous

Please tell me your secret, oh good friend

Find the way to communicate

Let me learn that I don’t need what is missing

Let me learn I have everything I need

Let me learn to be as happy as you are

Because you have me

Teach me to be as happy as you are

Because I have you

You are the joy of my life

The company that follows me everywhere

Oh, dear friend

Teach me the secret of your happiness.

WHEN YOU ARE GONE

I saw you walking away from me

Getting away and away

Little by little

I saw you flying away from me

Disappearing slowly

Little by little

And I tried to hold my breath

To actually go back in time

When we were so happy together

But your image in my mind was also fading

Little by little

And the pain in my heart getting more intense

Little by Little

And every thing was turning blurry

Little by little

And my legs were shaking

And I couldn't move

You were no where to be seeing

And something inside my chest was falling apart

Little by little

The distorted figures around me were moving fast

Pushing me away, and I had to go back

Go back to my mediocre life without you

Go back to live like nothing had happened

Go back and start my healing

Little by little

And the scars will never go away

Over and over I will try to forget you

Over and over I will try to forgive you

And over and over I will ever remember you

And time will put a toll on me

Little by little

My reflected image won't be the same

My smile will be turned backwards, upside down

Like my life without you

And my heart will still be falling apart

Little by little

And it will be the day when inside, finally dry

I will turn my face back

And I will think that there is you, who is approaching again

Little by little

And my heart will accelerate

And my life will feel strange

And I will think that I am smiling again

And then I will close my eyes

To keep that image of you eternally

I will die

Little by little

COLD SOLITUDE

It's the solitude that hurts

It's been far away from people I love

It's feeling empty inside and still with so much to give

How do I re-start

How do I jump start the engine of courage to keep going

How do I go back inside and talk to my most deeper feelings

How do I re-train myself, to live the life as it should be, to be happy

How do I pick up the pieces of my heart without getting blood in my hands

How do I heal the past

How do I stand up

How do I look forward

How do I question myself: Why I have so many questions?

How do I'll figure out all the answers

How is it that almost at the end of my life, I still feel childish

How is it that at the same time, I forgot to laugh as a child does

How do I fill the empty spaces without having any substance

How feeling warm, when is nobody to cuddle

How to handle the cold, when is coming from inside

How to stop thinking and get a good night sleep

How do I do that so apart from you

How do I do that so apart from me.

Night after night

Tear after tear

I try to think that this is just the first time in my life

That I never felt this way before

And I lie to me again

And again, and again

Thinking that you care

That this is just temporarily

That this new pain will past

And I am sinking again, a little bit more, every day

There is not even sweet silence

Only that buzzing

A torture carried in my brain for years now

And I try to fill the empty spaces with something noisy to cover it up

But I can't

I can't create no more

I can't smile no more

And I feel so dry

That I don't think I can even love no more

Because it hurts

But now I know

That because I still have so many questions

I am still human

I am still writing

I am still trying

And very deep into my heart

I still have a drop of hope

Hope that one day

The distance between us will be no more

That I would be able to start once more

That I will have the courage again

To say " I love you "

Hope that one day my heart would be completely healed

And I would be completely happy

And the past would be just the past

And I would be able to stand up and look at our future together

That one day I would have all the answers

And that same day, I would see our own children laughing

Filing with their joy all the spaces in our home

That I would never feel cold again

And I could finally cuddle until the night will come

And then finally sleep in peace and forever.